tired

I'm 100% physically and emotionaly tired..its been the longest week of my entire LIFE!...wooa..well im not really sure what to say since this is pretty much just me rambling to no1 but what ev..anyways tonight im going to sit curled up on the couch iwth a blanket and watch tv or a good movie..i cant wait..ive been waiting for this forever. 2 days break from the life at school. people really under estimate us students that have to go to school and work all day and them come home and do homework all night..its really tireing on our system..well at least for me. i work my ass off all week studying for tests and trying to keep my grades up and yet some ppl dont seem to notice? meh, w/e. i was gonna do something with j tonight but she went to a hockey game/ movie with her rents with is pretty cool for her. they have "family night" sometimes..she deosnt mind it so im happy for her. but other then j..i dont hang out with anyone else on weekends..except for the occasional c and j but thats only when theres a "party" or some sort so they can try to take advantage of me. its a great life. im not sure what i think about the c and j thing yet. im just not sure. i probabaly should be upset about it but i dunno if i am or not. i dont really have values and i dont stand up for what i beive in cuz i have no idea what it is that i belive in. is that a bad thing? anyways..tomorrow i have dance class:) yay! i love my dance class..but thats probabaly all ill do tomorrow unless j wants to do something but she mught be hanging out with her bf..wich makes me sick cuz there so in love its grose. im not the kind of person that thinks that omg kissing is sick but there like so holla over each other and urrrghh haha maybe im just mad cuz i get left out when she hangs out with him and not me..cuz i like have no one else and she has him and me..plus her dance class friends that go to our school so meh. im not upset.i dont get upset about big things anymore..only the little ones, thats not a good thing aaah? maybe if i had someone i was in love with i would think differently..cuz ive never been in love. ive neevr had a boyfriend for more then a month..me and my old "friend" s used to call it the "syndrome" when we can never have a boyfriend for more then a month cuz we always get sick of disguested with them..that happens to me all the time. but i guess i just havent found the right guy. and i havnt been looking..i had a lot of trouble with guys in the past so i just gave up totally and it pretty much cleared up my life.. but now i think im ready to have a relationship. i jst dont have time to meet anyone and get to know them..i haave a lot of great guy friends that i hardly know but i just odnt have time between school and dance and SLEEPING..haha no i shouldnt say that but ywah iguess im just lazy. meh its alright with me. but im gonan stop now i didnt know i had so much to say!lol