free me from this hurt inside

well first of all..i think im in a depression. depression changes your sleep habits..and i dont sleep anymore. and im just sad and i walk around looking like im in some grave pain or something..I like being around ppl that can make me laugh..it makes me forget about the hurt inside. sometimes it even puts me in a good mood for the day. i thought that i have been depressed for a while now but i didnt wanna belive it. but now im just..just sad. and its fucked. another thing that makes my sadness worse is my friend. Pretty much all summer me her and j hung out and we had the time of our LIVES! we partied/drank together..loads of sleepovers, beach, mall, hangin in gb, goin to SJIdol..it was soo much fun! and i told her everything..we even creid together. she helped me through some stuff i was tryin to get through and i love her! i just love her so much shes such an awesome person! we were never really what you would call "best friends" tho..me and j are best friends and she hung out with us all summer..but it was never official BFFS...at the time i think i could say she was one of my best friends. but she has her own best friend that she hangs out with 2. and it doesnt bother me when she hangs out with L(her BFF) and not me and J..bcuz i realize that she has more friends then just us. but now we come back to school from summer and shes slowly drifting away..i havent said more then 2 words to her in the past 3 weeks..not that were mad at each other or anything..i just dont know what to say to her..but the other day when i was walking down the hall all depressed..she asked me what was wrong and i said ill tell u later cuz i was on my way to class..and i think thats when she got pissed...she would NEVER tell me shes pissed at me tho..shes way 2 nice for that. she stil even talks to me..but only like Hey whats up?...she keeps to herslef a lot so its had to predict how shes feeling..she used to tell me how she was feeling in the summer:(..but now she doesnt talk to me. she hangs out with L every day now and on weekends..and im not pissed..i just miss her..i miss her more then words can say..she was the only person that knew how to make me feel better. jsut talking about her makes me cry cuz what we had in the summer was the best feeling ever..i knew she was always gonna be there for me..but now shes just not..and i dont know how to get that back..:( and that sadens me even more...