socialisation
well tonight i was re-entered into the world of people yet again. I went to the christmas parade with J, J, J's mom, and J's brother. It wasnt too cold out ither so it was a pretty good night to see HoHo! We had chairs, huge mother blanket and we got large hot chocolates from Robins Dohnuts.(it wasnt as good as Tims:(:(:(!!) I did notice something tonight tho...There was a lady with 3 children who asked to sit in front of us and we said yeah sure..it was no big deal they were only little kids and we could see over their heads. Then this really rude man told the lady she couldnt sit there bcuz he had his bookbag there and whoa..they had a big fight..just over a stupid parade thats sopposed to be a good thing and put you in the "holiday spirit". I never realized before how much the world has changed since i was a kid..im now just starting to notice things more..
After the parade we went back to J's and watched the Forgotten..it was pretty deadly..but I sorta felt out of place..J and J have been friends forever..and then they werent for a while bcuz J ditched her..and thats when me and j started hanging out. but being there with the both of them..was kinda of awkward. They were talkng about old times and all this funny stuff that i wasnt there for..not that i minded..but i sorta felt like i was raining on their parade..if that makes any sence? like they would rather me not be there? they werent mean to me or anything..and i exaggerate and make a big deal out of everything so it was probabaly nothing..but thats just what i sensed and how i felt when i was being there..and it sorta makes me sad. i feel really mean saying this..but i dont want j to be good friends with j again..becuz what will happen to me? i know she'd never forget about me..and J really makes her happy..shes laughin more..and J doesnt give her as much drama as i do. i get her mad and sad and everything. so maybe this is a good thing..maybe they should be friends again. I might as well live in a bubble. i dont want to hurt anyone else. and i dont want to cause any more pain on ppl that dont deserve it..ppl that only want to be happy.
well i went into the world of people and survived..i guess thats a good thing, maybe im starting to heal
After the parade we went back to J's and watched the Forgotten..it was pretty deadly..but I sorta felt out of place..J and J have been friends forever..and then they werent for a while bcuz J ditched her..and thats when me and j started hanging out. but being there with the both of them..was kinda of awkward. They were talkng about old times and all this funny stuff that i wasnt there for..not that i minded..but i sorta felt like i was raining on their parade..if that makes any sence? like they would rather me not be there? they werent mean to me or anything..and i exaggerate and make a big deal out of everything so it was probabaly nothing..but thats just what i sensed and how i felt when i was being there..and it sorta makes me sad. i feel really mean saying this..but i dont want j to be good friends with j again..becuz what will happen to me? i know she'd never forget about me..and J really makes her happy..shes laughin more..and J doesnt give her as much drama as i do. i get her mad and sad and everything. so maybe this is a good thing..maybe they should be friends again. I might as well live in a bubble. i dont want to hurt anyone else. and i dont want to cause any more pain on ppl that dont deserve it..ppl that only want to be happy.
well i went into the world of people and survived..i guess thats a good thing, maybe im starting to heal
posted by .M i k a l a h. at 11:53 PM
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comment PPL! plzzzzz:( bah on u
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