break away

I know you've let go.
That's something I cannot do.
I just can't forget all the hell you've put me through
I know its timefor me to move on and get over it
But I just cant

I see you everyday laughing, telling jokes
And i remember that it used to be me
You used to laugh with me
Now I'm forgotten
Like my presence doesnt exist

I seem to be facinated with you
with your life
with your new clothes and your hair styles
I dont know why
there has always been a competition with us
maybe..we just want the other to think were ok
and we want to make an impression
that we still "look good" without them

I dont hate you.
I never did
I dont even want what we used to have.
I couldnt stand it
Now that ive been on the outside looking in
The best times of my life were with you..
I'll never forget..
I just miss it sometimes
only sometimes..

I'm alright
I'm gonna be alright
I have new friends that i love deeply
But i still find myslef wondering what your up to
Whats new, whats going on in your life, who likes who

I'm so ashamed of myself
Bcuz I cant be stronger
I wish I was stronger
Stronger..