theres nothing to lose when noone knows your name

I was kind of excited to go back to school today..i wanted to see everyone. but now i wish i never did.
It makes me mad to see J and C together laughing about the time they spent together without me..like seriously...and they have all this stuff they talk about but they dont let anyone else in on the joke. eventually they told me but theres just so much more...and today when school was over..C said to J "call me tonight i have so much to tell you" and J's like "oh i have sooo much to tell u too"...which isnt a bad thing. they can be friends all they want. all im saying is that inside and to myslef it pisses me off to not be included. Almost to be sad about it. like im loosing someone. I always feel like that. Its just me tho. No1 else ever feels like that. Im just a jelous bitch(yeah im calling myself names again). I need to get over myslef and move on.

"Need more friends with wings, All the angels I know put concrete in my veins."